refections of time to come and time to go by

wrote in October of 2008 a refection of what i thought was coming here in Ireland
in actual fact nothing goes as it seems to ever . who cares i have so many wonderful people in my life i don't really care because whatever i do and wherever i end up all of them are with me .

i was on Claire island walking up a road and i started to shed tears not because i was sad because i was thankful for all the supportive family and friends i have .
smiles .

I finally booked my flights back to the land that i fell in love with 4.5 years ago last week ! !! Ive been trying to find a way to get back there since i left all those years ago . i remember i was in the airport in c town I looked back and smiled and thought i well go back someday sometime and im doing it .. it well be hard for me but if i can do this i can do anything . i need to go alone and do some crazy stuff and be myself .. i need to do this before i get tied down with a job and a life im not sure i want yet . i want all those things but not yet not yet later on in my life maybe in 3 or 2 years ! i had the dream of norma's kitchen again with some tall dark stranger with his arms around me and us talking with whomever . we were laughing about something funny that was said i had wine in on hand and the other was around the strangers arm that was around my shoulders and neck ! i want to see listovana on the coast of Ireland . Grannie grave on Claire island ! i just want to live a crazy year of new things a different job new people places new things love a place so much that i wont want to leave it and be sad to leave it when i have to ! this time i have a plan and nothing will stop it !